My+Personal+Fears

My Personal Fears  Over the course of my life, I have encountered many things that I am afraid of. Although I may get scared sometimes, in my opinion a fear is something greater than something just a bit scary. When you fear something, even thinking about it, gives you the chills. My personal fears are of needles that go into your skin, like shots and blood tests; bees of any kind; and of someone I am close to dying. All of these fears may seem silly at first, but if you think of it the way I do, they seem much more serious.  When I go to the doctor, the first thing that comes up in my mind is shots. When I do get a shot, the shot itself isn’t the bad part; it is the thought that something is being injected into my body. For the past couple of times at the doctors office, I have come very close to passing out when I get shots. Getting blood tests is just as bad, if not worse, than getting shots. When I think of the fact that blood is being sucked out of my body through a small tube connecting to my vein in my arm and a needle is just sitting there in my arm, I get a little queasy. Even now as I am writing this, I am getting major chills. The fear when I get it starts with a little prick at the spot where the needle is. It then moves up like a little magnetic wave to my head where I start getting dizzy. Then my eyesight starts to get blotchy and I am told that I turn a pale shade of green. This fear of surgical needles is not uncommon, like my other fear, of bees.  My second fear is of bees. I have gotten stung by bees of every kind every year since I was about 5 years old. For most people, they would get used to the bees, but for me I get even more fearful every year. I feel like there is a little thing trying to get me and stick a sword in me and kill me. I know that from most bees, I can’t die, but I still get scared. My fear of bees is probably because I am slightly allergic to wasps. Only certain wasps though, and it isn’t like a huge reaction that needs hospital assistance. The last and biggest fear that I have is a deeper, more serious fear of my loved ones dying.  Whenever someone is sitting on a high banister, or on the edge of something where they could fall and hurt themselves, I get little tingles in my feet, because I am afraid of them falling. These little “tingles”, are just little reminders to me that a situation is dangerous to my friends. Oddly enough, I do not get these strange tingles when I myself am in their place. I also get the tingles when someone goes out to an unfamiliar place and they don’t come back by the time I expected them back. Some people might call that being paranoid, but in my opinion, it is always good to worry about people because then when they get back safely, you appreciate their presence a little bit more.  As I have very thoroughly explained, sometimes fears can be serious things, or even important. Many mothers fear a lot more because they don’t want to leave their child alone or loose their child, but all of these fears are great ways of establishing what is and what isn’t good to do and how to do it.